thoughts are seriously in full brownian motion mode now.
so many of them, bonking off my head.
leaving me reeling from the shock, at least till the other bonks off my skull.
bonk bonk bonk.
leave the crazy girl alone, her with the bonking thoughts.
SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW.
went to marina barrage today.
its a really beautiful place,
made even more so
by the scarcity of people.
i really love wind. :)
dad drove us past nj today.seriously, from the outside it looks like a old weathered holding site. nothing like the shiny walls of hci or rj, or any of the surrounding schools. the first seed of doubt was planted in my head today, but im sure i can overcome this negative feeling, because im confident that nj's spirit is something to be experienced, not to be seen tangibly from its decor. i'll wait and see for tomorrow, then. serves me right for being shallow, anyway. :)
meesiam partyy just now at ah sim's house! im just about too stuffed to sleep. dont think i'd be able to sleep anyhow, what with all my back-to-school nerves.
tonight, i pray again.
pray that i will do my best to integrate into a new culture,
pray that my intuition and insistence on entering nj will be correct.
pray that whatever happens,
i will soon be able to call nj my new second home.
down with jealousy and envy,
for they bore into the heart and soul
leaving nothing but suffering and evil.
lastly,
cedar,
i love you :)
