17.7.09

no. 17.


i dont get a TGIF feeling on friday anymore.
most likely cos there is sales.
the cycle is non-stop.

on wednesday went to serangoon for meeting with mentor and kenneth for yfc.
rahul is darn cool. everytime we meet up with him its like an idea influx into our brains.
too bad so far he's been all talk and no walk. still, the talk part's enough to win me over.
it'd be cool to win people over just by talking to them. i'd really have to learn to do that.

rahul and kenneth dont like each other. geez dudes GET OVER YOURSELVES. youre supposed to be helping US in anycase, not turn us against one another. both of them are like the literal rich dad and poor dad. yknow, grown up people can tell children not to fight with one another, and then they turn around and do it themselves. can you blame peter pan for not wanting to grow up? adults. bah. dont sound too inspirational to me.

hopefully, all the hot air spouted that day will provide enough upthrust for a balloon to rise.
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just now i felt a little lonely. it wasnt a sudden hormone rush or something, it was just because of some small incidents that happened and did not happen. the feeling of losing touch with friends, is like ice breaking away from a berg. feeling like no one wants to be bothered with you anymore, like ive been such a pest and now that we're separated everyone can finally wash their hands off of me.. dont tell me its bullshit, these are my feelings. i've always been a doubting thomas; faith in all people is not a strong characteristic of mine.

i can only say this to myself now.
"sometimes love comes around
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down
knocks you down." -knock you down, keri hilson feat kanye west

now mom and dad are away at abu dhabi. lynn is at smu camp. luckily ive still got elise :) if not ill go mad with self-pity.

i am older now, and have matured. (or should have lah.) i won't cry for a few unreturned messages.

but if tomorrow, on my birth day, you showed up, i'll cry a thousand tears.

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sometimes i get this feeling that i scare people away with my face.
hmm.
that wouldve been quite an interesting and useful weapon 10 000 years ago when everyone was wearing fur and leaves. :D

but what you want me to do? its my face. ill never put the knife to it, fyi.

all i can say is
dont judge a book by its cover.

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hey you, you, you, and you.
thank you very much for your gift.
for one, it was frikking awesome :D
for two,
i really was about to cry.