today when yeye's body was sent into the crematorium, all i could think about was how life was like a roller coaster.. with an ending similar to its beginning.
if you ever get to witness a cremation ceremony, i think youll understand what i mean. its exactly like the beginning of a thrill ride.
well, the funeral procession is over. its definitely been physically and emotionally taxing on everyone, waiting on guests in the day, prayers at night, keeping watch through the early morning. not to mention all the crying.
it may be saddistic to say so, but the wake was not without fun. in fact, it was rather enjoyed, what with so many young cousins around( im second eldest on my dad's side ^^) it was definitely a bonding experience, sharing meals, enduring prayers, keeping watch, playing cards. i hope yeye didnt mind our frequent goofing around, though im pretty sure he wouldnve minded on account he isnt exactly religious.
SAVE THE JUN JIE foundation - donate generously to fund his ward in IMH!
SAVE THE JIA MIN foundation - conserve her from her demented brother!
SAVE THE JIA YI foundation - please support this cause by funding a scholarship for her extremely furthered education! :D
not to mention, all the zoning out we did during prayers. and daring each other to touch the monks head while he was chanting. :D:D:D:D:D that may be death by lightning. -.-
jia yi made an excellent observation -
"a week ago we were holding fireworks. today we're holding joss sticks."
the realisation has not hit yet that during future gatherings there'll be no more sparklers to burn and bubbles to blow cos yeye is gone. no more TODAY papers on saturday cos yeye is gone. no more quiet words of wisdom cos yeye is gone. no more enthusiastic shouts of "jia you, ah joy!" cos yeye is gone.
yeye was a bit of a Moe Turner/ Wordell combo. even though some people found it trying cos he was such a quiet guy, i respect him for it cos it takes great depth of fibre and character, to be a hard worker, and a quiet philosopher. and while those qualities arent valued by society today, it spoke a lot to me.
dunno how to go on, shall stop here. proclaiming love on Blogger seems so undoable, no?
yeye, wherever afterlife is, i sure hope youve reached it peacefully and are ok. love, joyce.
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today a granduncle came and treated us to the whole story of the Han clan, which is cool firstly cos we FINALLY get to hear it(we being the third and fourth generations) secondly, its STORY TELLING SESSION! who doesnt like a good wholesome story relevant to your life?
jun jie mustve been stressed, being the only guy of the fourth gen. :D dude, its all up to you then!
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feeling bad cos i pangsehed pw mates yesterday to reach the wake early. somehow being in school, in class (even if everyone was just doing pw. ie.slacking) just felt wrong. tsk. really must repress that kinda attitude. the whole world does not owe you something just cause yeye passed on. still, it was depressing to be at school; everything was off-colour. isnt that ironic? the FUNERAL isnt the depressing one..
anyway, im very sorry guys (if you ever get to read this anyway) firstly for having to put up with my sourprune face, and then leaving yall to practice. ill do my part, promise.
"whatever you do, don't shame me."
i think that's a great philosophy. :)
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tomorrow results will come out.
lets see whether blows so large can come in pairs.
