cos we're all under the upper hand,
and go mad for a couple of grams.
she don't wanna go outside,
tonight.
currently in a sticky situation.
sticky situation that was created by ME.
that's right,
tangled in your own web
tripping over skeletons in closets
imperiously, you wait, complacent.
not noticing that there's a big hole in it.
two incidents happened this week that made me seriously doubt my intelligence, sanity and capability. so busy chasing the goal and keeping ahead, that i didnt see the pothole right at my feet.
the pothole of complacency and laziness.
on another hand, i notice a pattern to my blogposts.
it sort of goes, happy, sad, then some sort of change proclaimed.
on the basis that i have nothing to be upset about, and that you have so much more than most people.
I DO.
but is that how i as a person is supposed to think?
as a singaporean, of comfortable middle-class, living off the hard work and patience of my father and mother?
to be dismal about my failures, then console myself, and be happy again?
suddenly, i see this sort of pat-on-the-back as really ridiculous and self-righteous.
all those nights of htht with various people, discussing our fears and hopes, and then ending off with a "we are so blessed and fortunate."
indeed we are. but is there something limiting about this statement? is that a too-simplistic ideology, of "counting one's blessings?" for it IS an ideology, inculcated in us since young as a moral. but does that hinder us from chasing more, and aspiring to be of higher classes?
i have been blessed, i believe. if i believed in the christian God, i wouldve thanked Him first and foremostly for my family. in fact, whoever it is up there, i do thank you. but i won't rest on laurels that arent mine. that i have a comfortable living, is the credit of my dad. that does not mean i do not do my bit. after all, didnt Stacey look for jobs even though his family had land?
im not sure, dear reader, if you understand what im saying. im not sure i fully comprehend this new perspective either. perhaps youre feeling cheated that i led you on a wild idea chase. well, now im on tenterhooks waiting for various results. maybe when im done waiting, ill be more confident talking concrete things.
virtual kiss! <3 ^^
eddie murphy - my advice, is to not take anyone's advice. you know your capabilities better than anyone else.
