today was a shit day academically speaking.
woke up late, watched videos, and rushed late to class.
got back my french test, was not well done.
french class i found difficult to catch.
went for history tutorial. was not productive.
started to wonder why i ever thought of pursuing history academically.
2 hours passed with little input on my part, and was fretting about class participation points.
then on my way back to hall,
i saw this. pine trees with their boughs laden with raindrops, like little droplets of goodwill waiting to baptise your troubles away. walking under their diamond-like opulence, i felt the freshness of pine and rain, mixed with that child-like (ok childish) anticipation when you see a drop of water hanging precariously off an edge. (what i saw was much better than this btw. imagine thick clusters of diamonds hanging all over you and glistening brightly against the dark green of the healthy pines <3)
and that just made my whole day better. :) gahh nature. i love you. :)
after all, all my human actions and behaviours are but a means to an end.
i study cos i want to do well. i want to do well because of multifarious reasons.
even the love of my studies is but a cover. while i enjoy what i study, it judges me not based on this love but how well i perform it to others' standards.
but nature, i can just appreciate with all my heart and it will not ask for anything back. it just is.
on a slightly unrelated note dear readers, if ever you feel stressed, just think of this sentence.
"Mountians are formed when the Earth's tectonic plates collide into each other."
once i was fussing over my notes while the tv was on discovery channel and when i heard this, something in my brain immediately unclenched itself. haha its quite a therapeutic sentence i think :) the idea that something so large and majestic and massive can be formed, just by a random act of nature. nothing that humans do can ever amount to such significance. no stress :)
sigh. back to real life, i really have to buck up my attitude and studies.
this sem's not going to be a slice of pie, and i cant be complacent/ overly fun-loving.
at least i know that there's an outlet for me to destress, if and when i need one. its waiting for me. :)
