whats this feeling of responsibility that i seem to be ignoring.
the responsibility to take care of myself,
now that im 20,
now that im going overseas for a while,
now that my parents wont be my counsel, in a foreign land.

the idea of discipline.

instead, im spending my time feeling scared and pre-missing my loved ones back in sg.
feeling that im bound to slip up, get mugged, not have as much of an enjoyable time as i expected.
friend, if you prepare yourself you wouldnt BE scared.

chase each experience as though it would be your last,
but be clear-headed, open-minded such that it neednt be.
new experiences cost money,
but which is not yours.
be humble, be cautious
and savour each one that comes not for frivolity, but such that
in the future, you may bring mom and dad to savour it as well.
its not all fun and games.
come home a more fluent speaker of french.


praying for strength, wisdom, foresight and far-sight.

joyce.