Watching Goodfellas at home on a rainy Friday night was bliss. Everything about it - catching a movie on Netflix that you didn't have to buy a ticket for, when you're tucked in and cozy with your cushions and your sleepy dog, while the rain pitter-pattered outside and made everything chilly, and its Friday so you know you can wake up later tomorrow morning - was a blessing and I feel very fortunate to have been able to do that.
It's four days into my new job, and work has been good to me so far. Partly it's because of December, when everything becomes more languid and everyone takes some more time for themselves and each other, but mostly it's because of all the friendly and helpful colleagues. To be honest, I am constantly fighting my impostors' syndrome at work - feeling like I shouldn't be there, like I don't know what I got myself into, like I got a short cut in to an exclusive club where everyone inside understands each other and everyone else is the other - which makes me quite inefficient. Reminding myself of the positives - the pay raise, the increased responsibility, the chance to learn and grow - will require practice of greater mindfulness and gratefulness on my part.
Indeed, I was grateful for a lot of things today. Grateful that before the Goodfellas, I got to see two ex-bosses who I've not met for a long time. More specially, it was Friday so I got to nuzzle my boo and make plans with him over the weekend.
I'm grateful for all these things and more, universe. <3 Now to practice mindfulness in paying it forward.
