i turn my head to the east,
i dont see nobody by my side

i turn my head to the west,
still nobody in sight,

so i turn my head to the north
swallow that pill that they call pride,

that old me is dead and gone,
the new me will be alright.

-t.i. and justin timberlake,
Dead and Gone.



there are so many questions and anxieties in my head now,
but im not going to be that person,
who asks others,
"how?" .

i'll do it by myself, first get more info, then ask reliable sources.
and then i'll sit down by myself and figure things out.
eventually i'll solve it, for myself^^

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lynn just shared with me a bedtime moral:

would you rather earn 10million dollars while others earn 20million,

or

would you rather earn 9million while others earn five million.





if you chose the second option, you chose as many people in america apparently chosen- it doesnt matter how much you earn, as long as you have more than other people, that is sufficient. this is obvioulsy a case of blind earning; wanting more money not because you need it, but because you want to be better off than others. you may become blinded by the obsession of earning.


i chose the second option :P
its true, i care too much about what other people think. even when packing, my main aim was to do more than others, not really to do to the best of my ability.
this holiday job, which i at first said was to gain experience,
has ended up with me complaining about low pay, about boss not paying on time, arguing with my friends, obsessed with making more. my intentions for the money were good, but while i was earning it, i was straining relationships with others.

i guess this has been something learnt, for the month of jan. ^^


at least everything has ended well, saturday's the day to get my pay, last day spent with fellow cheap-labour. and im joining forces with lynn to treat the family to crab dinner someday, because saturday night is reunion dinner! awwright.

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yesterday went ariel's house to watch lethal weapon, brothers grimm and the happening. personally, the others is still my favourite from ariel's house. all were nice shows, but not particularly nice. the happening had a really original plot, but its rather twisted. still, there's a message behind the plot, even with the little sub-stories.

tried donating blood at raffles place, but wasnt able to because i had a low iron count. o.0 im not deterred though, i'll be back ^^