now that the youth for causes thing is really starting to get down and dirty, the stress is piling sky-high. today we went for the interview thing, and it was definitely quite screwy. firstly, we had 2 days to complete a presentation. minus school, that would be one working day. one day to pull together a ppt, send it to kenneth, have it rejected, do another much more detailed one and cobble a 5 minute script of what you exactly want to do in a 5month period. i ended up sleeping at 4am today designing the ppt.
then 7am, wake up, go dhoby ghaut, practise at macs, practise at ymca, 1 minute's notification that it was our turn next, and BOOM! we were standing infront of judges begging the laptop to hurry up and load, presenting a totally unprepared impression to the three sot goons whove been sitting there all morning. which, essentially, was what we were.
well, the basic gist of what happened is: overshot 5min, didnt have time to complete what we wanted to say, stuttered like nobody's business, and generally... unimpressive i guess. at least they did give us some valuable advice, i truly appreciated that. bit nervous about the "teddy bears aint gonna work" thing, but at least they thought the cookies and flowers viable.
i dont even know if i want to get through anymore. sure it would be a great experience, and if we all survive and complete it, that would be a wonderful accomplishment. but the stress is just ginormous. if we get through, i'll still welcome the opportunity, but its a great challenge. lately, i feel that stress has been making me irritable and impatient, which is a pathetic excuse for being a bitch. big sorry to all the people ive snapped at this week (including family, and especially celina kashin and vaynii); im going to channel all that stress to my AIKIDO! HEI-SHIOU!
ichi, nii, san, shii, go, roku, nana, hachi, kyu, ju!
(that's the jap counting from 1-10 which we say during training. but the way i say it, its "itch, ni, san, she, go, rook, sheesh, haj, kill, jew" :P)
oh, and i realised, instead of wallowing in my stress, i should find ways of dispelling it. of course, not at the expense of my studies, but just one video like this erases all my tensions of the day.
George Denis Patrick Carlin (May 12, 1937 – June 22, 2008) was an American stand-up comedian. He was also an actor and author, and he won five Grammy Awards for his comedy albums.[22]
Carlin was noted for his black humor as well as his thoughts on politics, the English language, psychology, religion, and various taboo subjects. Carlin and his "Seven Dirty Words" comedy routine were central to the 1978 U.S. Supreme Court case F.C.C. v. Pacifica Foundation, in which a narrow 5–4 decision by the justices affirmed the government's power to regulate indecent material on the public airwaves.
i learnt about him when i was watching the documentary "History of the Joke". everyone should watch that, its combines educational with funny. anyway, check out his 7 dirty words act if you're up to it, its an eye-opener. anyway, RIP george carlin! i wonder if he'd be proud to know that people are still starting to know about him even after his death. that is legendary status. AND when you think about it, he was a drug and alcohol addict in his younger days.
window shopping with yfc group after the interview today at the cathay. the prices are unbelievable, but i dont think it was a waste of time, because it was very aesthetically pleasing and inspiring. vintage is amazing; definitely going to try designing my own stuff after the end of the next 1 and a half years. and i'll co-sell it with jeng yi!!! hahax. we're all desperate for a little more living in our lives.
well, i think i'd be sad if we didnt get through to yfc. cos i jumped into the yfc competition, actually to stretch myself, to GIVE myself stress. so that i can adapt, and i wont have so much trouble with stress in J2. plus, we've already gotten so far together, c'est bon. if we were suddenly out of the competition, i wonder if the spell would break. besides, its undoubtably a good experience and a means to help the needy.
but now, im not even sure if i can get promoted.. hahax. what am i talking about? barely 3 months of studying in jc, and i say i cmi. but its true, i am scared. with all the commitments, i cant foresee what's going to happen. or maybe i do know what's going to happen, i just want to blissfully delude myself.
all i can say is... "we'll get what we justly deserve." - kenneth.
nvm, if we dont get through, i'll still be looking forward to help out at scs in several other ways! the mothers' day one, for example.^^
blink one blink twice
shake your head, blink thrice.
kiddo, you're in a different world.
but you know your own ground,
and you know what you must do.
set that standard,not for others, but for yourself.
AWWRIGHT, GREENLINK EXHIBITION TOMORROW! IM GOING TO DO MY BEST FOR IT, AND NOT LET THAT JEOPARDISE MY STUDIES!!!
acceptance of reality is my new strategy.
