freak-tard frustration.

i swear that after JC, if i dont find a course that i love other than arts, im going to make the 180 degree switch to arts faculties. i remember when i was sec 2 and considering my streaming choices, i decided to go for trip sciences not only cos it was the most 'prestigious', but also cos i knew id never be interested in sciences on a deeper scale. yup, i typed correctly. its not that confusing really, having a passion for arts while feeding yourself science sounded more holistic than just following your heart and becoming an artsy-fartsy dreamer. at least that was my theory back then.

but as much as i love drawing, its not going to take me very far in life if i just continue to float along. like for example the greenlink posters that i designed; theyre nice and all, but in the working world you wont be applying such skills cos everything can be done on com. and i suck at photoshop. so i'd be termed as 'talentless' unless i can make my work take on a more definite form.


haix.
paths full of bones.

& i wonder if dad and mom would support me going to lasalle. i wonder if i can even enter lasalle. ive never done a freaking portfolio in my life.


one day, i'll be fluent enough in german to sing 'jung und nicht mehr jugendfrei'. seriously, the song rocks croc socks.