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aikido training at NS clubhouse
on the last day of school, we went for a cca outing! attendees were: joyce, milissa, dionne, li-er, ye-zi, adikah, victoria, nao, jeremy and daniel! this is just to show that i can remember everyone's names already, save for a few seniors :)
well, we went to subway to have dinner (at 5 oclock. goodness!) then went to popular's for lack of better ideas. outing was seriously fun, because everyone was just a full-out blabber! talktalktalktalktalk. i dont think there are any seriously introverted people in aikido. ^^
then we walked all the way to spansjom clubhouse for training. first thought: i like the dojo! the whole room was for aikido, so the floor was all rubber mats. plus they had little open patios for ventilation so you could see the night view of the PIE. and they had a clock! that's a key essential.
second thought: my goodness, training has been totally slack! its nothing compared to training at the dojo. everythings much faster paced and way more professional. I SHALL BUCK UP FOR TRAINING AND NOT TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED! but seriously, i cant remember much about the moves anymore, everything was so fast. i shall have to speed up the learning curve a little, till i finally get the essence of the art, then everything shall come to me au naturel. but so far, its fine. i like it!
oh, training at the dojo is fun, as in i got to study alot of intriguing characters. one lady i was practicing with had green eyeshadow on, which made me think that she was a dancer. but the huge bruise on her forearm sort of marked her out for a pro. i was inventing all sorts of wierd backgrounds for her. she was nice though ^^
there was another guy who looked so serious he looked like the hair fetisher in charlie's angels. which is mean, but ITS TRUE. i was rather freaked out, but i probably looked like a freak to him too, cos my hair was screwed from rolling about. anyhow, he looked sort of pissed on having to coach a newbie, but he was helpful too - in a very not talkative way. ^^
but the funniest part of the training came after it. sensei called on all the njcians to clean the mats, cos we're technically the juniors. so we went to clean it...JAPANESE STYLE! like stand in one line, and everyone run across the dojo on fours. it was alright at first, but when we had to do it again, everyone kept slipping and falling on their face! and we kept laughing and laughing because it was absolootly hopeless. there was no point to it. cos the seniors were showing off, running across like there was nothing to it, but i couldnt even get my face off the floor. whatthetoot.
anyhow, after training i walked home by myself. it was super spooky, but i made it in the end. the loneliness gave me lots of time to think about things and to sing songs zhaoxiarly without anyone distracting me.
nus open house!
went to nus with lynn at the last minute, and while its not exactly my favourite climate being surrounded by people older than me, it was nice spending time with lynn^^. and i also got to learn more about fass and school of built environment, which are seriously cool. couldnt stand the talks, i seem to have some kind of microchip screwed into my head that causes me to fall asleep the minute someone starts speaking into a mike. all i registered were a bunch of unintelligible acronyms. a bit sad, because i didnt really gain from this short experience. i only learnt one thing: that food at nus is seriously good. and seriously cheaper.
slumdog millionaire
watched slumdog millionaire cd with family! its seriously a great show. didnt exactly inspire me to tears, but it is just enjoyable. eight out of ten! the whole destiny thing was a little cheesy though.
got a little mopey after slumdog millionaire though. out of all the parents in the world to be born to, i get to be born to my great great parents in safe singapore, to a family that has a comfortable living. its seriously too much to be thankful for. as in, surely there must be some sort of catch. "there's no such thing as a free lunch" - but we have a shot at living - isnt that free? and for us who have been born to a far more privileged life ( i dont mean a rich life, i mean a comfortable and secure life): what is the price of that? as compared to being born to a life in the slums? our parents didnt exactly bargain with any supernatural power. out of all the places i could have been born to,
HOW THE HELL DID I END UP HERE?!?
its really some freaked up jack miracle.
and that is why i wuv my famiwy.
i'd like to say that the only reasonable explanation for this is karma,
but fairness was a concept that humans came up by themselves.
outing at orchard!
went to orchard today with honghui, mili and yingsie! man i missed squadmates. WHERE ON EARTH ARE THE OTHER HALF?! i seriously miss huilin and moomoo and ariel and amee and vidhya. wonder if they're alright as well. today was quite a fruitful outing! cos
1.tried out pepper lunch for the first time! yes, i know im an obiang. and its super good! man, im still thinking about it. but super expensive, it shall be reserved for special occasions only. like if i dont get retained this year. o.0 anyway, we just kept talking and talking about random stuff. can see how germaine can talk for a crazed 5hours straight.
2.wore high heels for the first time! hahax im seriously so happy, cos i got my court shoes ready for 28th march! call it a blessed event, cos joycie han managed to find high heels that she can actually fit her behemoth feet into on her very first shoehunt. yeah~ can't wait to see (hopefully) all of 4A again!!! plus squadmates!!! whoots.
3.explored more of far east plaza and takka! well done, im slowly building up my pitiful knowledge of orchard road. there was this ultra cool art exhibition along one of the roads, and we went in to take pics! seriously fantastic. I WANT AN EXHIBITION SPACE OF MY OWN TOO, and i'd go totally crazy. that's sort of why i want to open my own biz ^^. so i get a space that is MINE AND MINE ALONE. muha.
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this week there has been a lot to think about, about me as an individual. i realise that i am always trying to get onto other's people good sides. or rather, not willing to seriously look at a person's character, and to evaluate a person, because my thinking was that everyone has something unique and worth befriending in them. while i still believe in that, i feel that it has gotten somewhat out of hand. its not as if im a passive person, im not. so why am i hiding myself?
see, what my previous thinking was, that i should only expose my true colours to people close to me, and serve those who dont know me right. (if you dont understand, its ok. its a twisted lunatic idea that will benefit noone even if they understood it.) but its gotten a little tiring. isnt friendship the product of willingness on both sides? why must i feel as though im the one who will hold all the cards? that's seriously domineering and narcissistic of me.
so yeah, that's my reflection! like i said, its best for everyone's sanity if you just skipped the whole chunk. ^^dont want anyone freaking out and going to imh. neither do i want people to call authorities to put me in a straitjacket. im perfectly sane; it will take a little more than a term of physics to kill me.
i estimate that it would take another semester. ^^
oh! but i do know one thing. PEOPLE WHO DONT MAKE FRIENDS WITH OTHER PEOPLE JUST BECAUSE THEY THINK THEIR FACES ARE DAO ARE VERY VERY PISSIFYING PEOPLE. COULD YOU GO AND RECYCLE YOUR BRAIN CELL? BECAUSE I THINK ITS MALFUNCTIONING. and no, you werent funny.
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how much would i endure in order to avoid a confrontation?
if you were my friend,
not much.
and i like to think that you are my friend.
so you really really gotta stop doing it.
please, i hope you are just unaware of it.
somehow, even if you are naturally like that,
ive got this feeling i'll still be your friend.
