doing good isnt as important as feeling good.
for what good is doing good
when you're not feeling good doing it?

confused?
good.
so am i.


currently, two days have been devoted to youth for causes.
oh, yesterday was worth mentioning. meaning today wasnt worth mentioning, it was A SHIT DAY, BUT THAT HAPPENS MANY TIMES anyway.

yesterday we visited alaggan (im sure that's not how you actually spell it, sorry kiddo) who has leukaemia and who is 10 YEARS OLD. first reaction was obviously disbelief. who in heck gets cancer that young? apparently there are people who do. :( it felt more like we were there to help his family though, his family is in deep financial shit but he seems happy enough, if not healthy. i hope he doesnt have to suffer chemo, though he did tell us his treatments were painful :(

the next one was an uncle who had throat cancer. he could talk, but he had a piece of his jaw removed so when you look at his profile, it looks like a portion of his cheek has been scooped clean away. plus he had been drinking milk only for the past 7 years. he was a nice old uncle though, very patient with us even though we were damn shy and mostly talked to his mother (94 years old - pro.) and ignored him. he's a cool dude, even voluntarily showed us his bandaged wound where an infection cos of cancer had resulted in a serious hole in his body.