i feel bad, sickened, guilty, ashamed, irked, irritated,abashed, embarrassed, ill-mannered and etc etc, all at once.


isnt it weird how your perspective of yourself can make you feel a thousand and one things? if you'd just remove my cerebrum, all this would go away. id turn into a cannibalistic savage only worried about filling my stomach.




but nah, i just have to get used to it. im sorry if i was so ______.



im a nice person, really. i think.

but it's not my fault if a lesson was ingrained into my head so badly.



indoctrinated; brain-washed.