today was a nice day. ^^
but it only started being nice after school, which is kinda normal anyway.
school was quite awful - not that anything horrendous happened, just that i was so tired i kind of nodded off a bit in every lesson. normally that's nothing to feel awful for, but when its so bloody near the Os and your teachers have dones so much for you, and then you go and sleep through their class it makes me feel pretty darn horrible.
oh-bt one thing that was nice was RECESS! ate recess with hilo, honghui, mili and yingsie and we talked and laughed so loud! it seems that the only thing that we never get tired of talking about is red cross, even though its a subject that has been expended over 4 years. im already missing it so badly! cant wait to have a looksie during camp, though my juniors are going to have a hard time making it interesting - camp at holding site just feels eww-ish. ohwell. i guess its all about new experiences and adapting - which was the theme to last years camp! hahax.
and another thing that was nice was mrs ouyang's talk, i guess. 4A ROCKS!! we've got the lowest msg, compared to midyears when we had highest out of all trip-sci classes. ^^. we still gotta keep working, and pull that 9.6 down to a 6.0, though. i gotta work hard too, so as to not pull the class down!!!
after school, went to have lunch with yingsie, mili and avery. avery's very nice ^^. she didnt take offence when i said she looked like bert from sesame street in her pri school ic, which is what i would have done.
then, went with ys to library to study. and i was right!! there WERE spaces in the library!hahax. eh, i've been going to tpnlb for 8 years, never doubt the pro, ok!
very productive there^^ and suprisingly, i didnt fall asleep at all! must be cos i wouldve felt so guilty, on account that ys was studying so hard. i think i'll do this more often. ^^
well, this was about my day. other nice little snippets happened today, like when the guy giving out pamphlets said thank you back (how rare is that!! so sweet!!) and when my pri school neighbours smiled up at me in the lift today, and i was totally melting, cos they're so damn cute and friendly!!! really made my day, man.
oh, another was the elderly macdonald auntie who was just so nice and un-bitter, unlike many other cleaners who make you feel guilty. and i sort of gave her a hand with hauling the trash bin, so that made me happy :)
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while all these happy things are happening in my life, it just kind of gets miserable when i think that all these had to come when everything is ending. like talking to amadea who sits behind me in hmt class, and chatting to avery when walking home. like rekindling friendships i always thought were long extinguished, just to find out that actually, there's always been existing embers, still glowing hot, waiting to be fanned to life. like erasing any fears, just to take the first step, then being pleasantly suprised when my efforts are reciprocated.
its too late to regret, though i do not feel any regret in the first place. maybe its all these things that happen at the last minute, which makes our fond memories stronger. so, im glad they happened when they did. better that they happened at a wierd time, than not happen at all.
i have been a coward. but im glad my reasons are currently being rewritten now. i hope the others get rewritten in time.
and, nah, im not being mopey, or suffering from pre-grad depression. who says i cant be happy and sad at the same time?
