tomorrow, the number of days i have left in cedar
will be reduced to one hand.
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O levels are coming!!!! what the hell am i doing here, then.
cannot!!!! i must do my best to make it to speech day 09, do my best to fufil that class gathering!!!
ok, so ill just unload some crap and go.
1. felt dead guilty when i didnt support some ex-convict yellow ribbon project thing. cos the lady who was trying to sell me the pencils (who was an ex-convict) gave me that look when i said no, like the "i knew it" look. im such a hypocrite. ive just become one of the hundreds who say they support ex-convicts reentering society, but are just not going to do anything about it. maybe this is a social greed too, like what we discussed in el period. like there's a subconcious in you, that instantly rejects ex-convicts, that's why you dont want to help them.
or maybe its because i was just too selfish to fork out 2bucks on pencils.
2. information is meant to be shared, just as you expect it of people, people would expect it of you. umm, i guess its still a person's perogative to share their information if they want to or not, but sometimes its just ridiculous. this incident happened way back, where i saw such an incident occuring between 2 classmates before an important exam. most ridiculous thing: mrs lim said right at the start of the year that we're supposed to share and progress as a class. here's another example of human greed affecting being the root of all problems.
anyway, i guess it wasnt anything personal, bc the two made up. but to me i took it as a personal affront then, bc i never saw such behaviour before. dont know why im unloading this crap now when it took place long ago, i guess it was fermenting too long in my brain.
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i suddenly realised how funny the future is.
a lot of things that we wouldnt have guessed would come true
just come true of their own accord anyway.
like, if you told me when i was p5 that one day i would be classmates again with hweeyin, i would be like, huh?
and if you told me in sec 1 that one day i would be table partners with jia ling, i would be like, huh HUH?
hahax. no offense to the two pple up there, and all the other people who have starred in my life so far. you yourselves know it to be true. im thankful to have met all of you!
and if you could tell me;
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ok quick joyce!!!
get lost!!!
